My own Twilight

I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you
Trying to figure out your darker life and the things you kept hidden and secret.
And you were always there for me, popping up when I least expected, and saving me from things.

you loved me and accepted me and told me I was beautiful and all those things...
And you promised never to leave me...

You thought you were hurting me, were making my life dangerous,
That I would be better off without you...
So in a whirlwind...after a perfect and wonderful time with only a few problems...
You left...
I tried to find you for a while....But got lost...Exhausted...Dazed...Confused....
Most of all....Hurt....

It felt as though my heart had been pulled from chest, and I had lost my complete reason for living
I was completely numb...When they found me...And slept it out...
I remember doing well at school...Pretending that everything was fine...And succeeding
Yet I couldn't fool anyone...Not even myself...
Those long months that you were gone...Sucked the life out of me...

I wondered if you had moved on...And though you probably had...
I didn't understand why you left...There was no real reason...
I tried to find ways to get you back....Even just your voice in my head...
Or the memories of you being angry with me....anything...Just to remember you...

A friend was there...The only reason why my life had not completely ended...
I found myself spending more and more time with them...
Trusting in them...Giving away more of myself than I should have....
Trying to find some happiness...And maybe giving them the wrong idea....
And ended up in a relationship of sorts...Without my consent...

And suddenly out of nowhere you were back....
I saw you again....Almost like a vision or dream appearing out of mist...
The haze that had become my life...
And so with it came back all the agony...The pain...the questions....
And yet still a sense of mystery around you....
A feeling that I knew something had happened...Something I wouldn't like...

You met my 'friend' and hated him instantly....
I suppose that you always had...
I suppose that it hurt you to know that he had been there for me....
Even though you had urged me to forget you and just move on....

Those first few days were confusing...
I didn't know where I stood anymore...And I tried to make sense of it all...

But then it happened...We were closer than ever before....

And i love you even more....

Life was perfect...And we were perfect...
Happy and unaware that something dark was looming...

And then before I knew it....At a celebration of sorts...
The truth comes out....That girl is your ex....Yes the one with the pretty face...
The one that never quite liked me....
And it hurt...But suddenly all made complete sense as everything fell into place...

But you didn't really love her....no you loved me....
We were supposed to be together....And you promised...
And you kissed me...
And it tried to forget...Although already forgiven....

And even after all the drama....And the fighting and the war...
I still am waiting for my happy eternity with you after all....